I'm inlove.

random day. here's a blast from my not so distant past.

something i wrote last year. July 12, 2011.

one day.


one day, i won't be able to move. someday, i won't even know i exist. that day i won't recognize anybody. that day, i won't recognize myself. and i'll pretend nobody really cares, like nobody knows who i am. and i'll continue reaching out, until life gets to me.


for now, i'll just continue walking. i'll take this step. i'll take this road. and though a lot may think i just gotta stop, and a few will try to learn to take their own stand, i'll just look at their faces, i'll just gaze as they gawk. they may despise me. they can throw whatever they get a hold of. but then, i'll continue gulping my beer, eating all that junk, sleep 'til my head aches, i'll toss my coins to wishing wells, waste my money on bits and pieces, i'll continue to buy red, yellow and blue paint- i'll color my world 'til my heart's content. it may look like i'm wasting my life to smokes. it may seem as though i'm throwing my life to barren wastelands. but then, this is how i buy my life, my own ticket to happiness.


it's easy enough to earn money. it's never easy to burn what you've earned. it's easy to live a life of comfort- because what's really hard is to find happiness amidst what people call the perfect kind of life.


so i have no time to waste to crumbles.no, i have no time to waste. i can sleep, move, laugh, eat...drink 'til dawn and go on a trip. while those who despise me curse me for being happy now, remember this: one day,you won't be able to move. someday, you won't even know you exist. that day you won't recognize anybody. that day, you won't recognize yourself. and you'll pretend nobody really cares, like nobody knows who you are. but you'll remember what you did when you could still move every bit of muscle in you; when you knew people who could bring out the better in what you already thought was the best; when you still had enough guts to drink all the booze you wanted.


Because as for me, i'll be laughing- 'cause God knows how much i've saturated the world just to get the license to get madly, ridiculously happy now 'til future when the rest of the righteous humanity isn't.






i can't believe i wrote this even before i had my job now-which is perfect for this prose i wrote. and i've always believed that everything happens for a reason and that everyone is meant to be someone, to do something, to be something else rather than whatever they are now...something much greater than what they imagined they'd be. i'm happy. but i can still be so much happier. (:


*as for me, i've always believed i'd be a rich nomad :D hahaha


and since, i keep on reading stuff i've written in the past (waaaaay past), i believe that it's a symptom. i'm always like this when i'm inspired, when i want to write, when i'm happy, when i feel good...when i'm in love. and though i don't know whom i'm in love with, can i just say... i'm just glad i am. <3

PVC's and Old Cars

WHAT THE...i think i just had a premature ventricular contraction (PVCs).
Oh, you mean you skipped a heart beat?

it's amazing how old things get to catch my attention. Like, while i was at work earlier this afternoon (during a table presentation to a client. HAHA sorry, coach), i browsed over a Top Gear magazine and immediately fell in love with a black Jaguar E-type. And I didn't even believe in love at first sight!

And Mr Landon parks right...THERE.

My love for old cars started when i first laid my eyes on what i thought to be a Mustang on the movie, A Walk To Remember. And for years, I thought it was a red Mustang with white racing stripes. Every time i see Shane West driving it, i kept gawking at our television like crazy. Apparently, I tried to research on what type of mustang it is (and by research, i mean Google q:) and BOOM! i then knew that it was a '67 Camaro. haha So much for fantasizing about Mustangs. BUT still, my love for Mustangs (Ford) and Camaros (Chevrolet) continued to grow as i fell more in love with cars...old cars to be exact.

But i think, I've never seen a car so beautiful and as breath-taking as what I've seen just this afternoon. (Drum roll, please!) The Jaguar E-Type which just took my breath away for nearly 60 seconds. Imagine me staring at a magazine for 60 seconds, blinked and then, stared at it again. How come I just met you today? I was blown away. Really, really blown away.

I know. I'm such a newbie for knowing this just now. I'm now asking for your forgiveness. Have you forgiven me?

Enzo Ferrari. He definitely knows what he's talking about.

To make up for knowing this dazzling dude late, i made a research. Well, for starters, it's a British automobile made between 1961 'til 1974 (yes, i made a research and yes, from google :D). With good looks and amazing performance- it was quoted by Mr. Enzo Ferrari as the 'most beautiful car ever made'. 

Well, i couldn't argue with that, could you?

Light weight and Low Drag coupe designs were made for racers, and well, a certain Bob Jane won the 1963 Australian GT Championship using a lightweight E-type Jaguar. And the rest is history.

Hey! This IS history.

a classic Jaguar E Type. i'm drooling.

I don't know a lot about car races (aside from the Piston Cup on the Disney movie 'Cars' teehee) so, i'll leave you with that. But still, old cars are amazing. I think they were made to last and look for an owner to give them a new life in this wrecked earth. Kidding! I mean, i wanna be like an old car: made to withstand the test of time. A lot of new ones may come but still, people will always look back and go back to the old ones. They may look rusty, dented, scratched but still, the machine works amazing- as if always brand new. And i'm betting the owners don't really care about how much you pay them... just promise them you'll take good care of something so precious to even sell. I mean, you've got the 'most beautiful car ever made' in your hands, right? (Right now, i wish someone reads this and gives me this. HAHA and then, i can die right then and there.)

i'll scour the Earth to look for one of these. 

And if you think I'm in love with these cars- well, i think you're right! :D <3 <3 <3 and i'm putting hearts right here. as if it's not obvious and literal enough. HAHA